Forgiveness: Balm to the Soul

Good Morning Everyone!

A news item caught my attention yesterday as Livestation opened itself up on my computer. When the cyber faeries insist, I'm thinking I should pay attention. The story was about accused Nazi, John Demjanjuk, who was being carried from his home in Bath, Ohio for deportation.

Demjanjuk was obviously old and ill. At 89 he was a pathetic site, indeed. I wondered about the process, because it seems so vivid and cruel.

Years ago a friend and I were at a hospital where her father lay dying. He had been a very hard and cruel man to his family, according to her and her sisters. Now he was the same pathetic sight that Demjanjuk posed yesterday. She remarked to me in the hospital cafeteria, "You know, I think that sometimes you hate something so much that you become that thing you hate." That was probably 35 years ago, and yet I remember it as vividly today as if I had heard it yesterday. It rang of Truth.

There ought to be a statute of limitations on hate. Of course this is our personal internal, spiritual work. Each of us, individually.

It's not that these things happened so very long ago, it is the fact that hate, kept alive, only eats up the hater. This is what ought to be taught in every church, every synagog, every temple, and yes, even in schools.

Horrible deed set up a dramatic field of contrast in order that we might choose what we do want in the face of what we don't want. When we see cruelty, such as I saw yesterday as they were carrying Demjanjuk out of his home, I immediately wished for kindness, compassion, and most of all enlightenment for all.

Some will argue that this is about justice. What about those 29,000 people that he is accused of being an accomplice to their genocide? Who will speak for them? I say that they are all in Well Being, in Oneness with Source, and know nothing of hatred and revenge. They know they are eternal beings and that there is only Love. It is only here on planet Earth, as we grapple with evolving our consciousness that we debate these issues.

The greatest argument that I can put forth for forgiveness harkens back to what my friend observed about the journey of her feelings for her father. She became him, that which she hated most.

Without forgiveness, hate eats us up in our biology, in our relationships, and in the quality of the life journey that we are keeping ourselves from enjoying. It ruins our lives, not theirs. Why should we forgive and forget? Because we deserve it; even if they don't.

If we take just one individual, such as my friend, and now multiply that by the millions upon millions that "hate" for a "justified" cause, we now see why we are at war somewhere all the time. Hatred is then passed on to our beautiful children, who come in as pure Love. It is tantamount to poisoning our own Well. We think that we have to teach them about what horror was done to "us" all those years ago, so they will carry on our "fight". But where is the Love in that? Where is the Goodness in this?

Forgiveness is the hardest thing a human can do. I know. But when we undertake that Soul work and move through it and get beyond it, there is a vista of infinite possibilities that cannot be seen through the cloud of hatred. There is so much more on the other side.

We are being called to become spiritual adults; to grow up. This is the personal work that has to be done one by one in order to see a new Earth. It isn't about "them" or "those people"; it is all about the individual: you and me.

So the next time you hear yourself ranting about "them" or "him" or "her" and the outrageous thing they did, stop and listen to what you're saying and feel the vile that is coursing through your body. This is what your hardened heart is doing to You.

That, dear reader, is the first step in the journey of forgiveness; a return to Love in your own consciousness.

Take the journey. It's Good for You.

Thanks for reading!

Kath

High Self Esteem: Remembering Who You Really Are

Good Day Everyone,

This week the theme seemed to come up repeatedly as "self esteem" or "self value" or "self appreciation" or "self worth".

Any of these terms ring true for you?

The first time it came up was in a class that I was taking via teleconference. A lady was sharing that she was "selfish" and confessing that as if it were a horrible thing. A gentlemen chimed in that he, too, was a "selfish prick". Whooa! Wait a minute! Wait just one minute!

When and where did "selfish" get such a rap? I'm thinking it has to do with religion and wanting to get the masses to do what was expected. So, therefore, let's give "selfish" a really bad moral rap, then they'll be more pliable if they're in fear of their mortal souls. Arg!

I like to take words apart and find a true meaning in them. If I do this with the word "selfish", I come up with self and fish. Fishing for self, and morphing that into fishing for Self. Now I know what the word really means and where it focuses me internally: searching within for the Me of me - my own Godchip. My True Voice. My True Godself.

Well, we wouldn't want those masses finding out how powerful they really are, so no wonder they made the word selfish "bad". A virtual sin. I'd best leave anymore remarks about that and move on right here.

One of the really interesting benefits of being "selfish", is that when you are following that internal path, you learn what makes you tick, what makes you feel good, what blows your skirt up, what makes you joyful, and fulfilled. These emotional tracers of feeling good are all street signs on the path of selfish - fishing for and finding your True Self. These thing make you happy, by Jove! These are the things that connect you to Source and show you that you can make yourself happy.

Now when you're feeling good, and filling up your own basket with joyous events, situations, activities and focus points, guess what happens? Your cup runneth over. You are so full of Source (joy, love, energy, creation itself) that it flows out of you in every thought, word and deed. Then and only then are you a blessing to others and effortlessly "give" from your overflowing cup.

When you are overflowing your cup of love and blessings (energy) to everyone and everything around you: your co workers, your family, your friends, the book you're writing, the project you are focused on - you are flowing It - Source Itslef right smack into your creations, which benefit and bless over and over again. In that moment when you can see and realize that by You being You, doing what makes you tick blesses people, there is the real value of You. A Value Beyond Measure - you being fully Who You Are, which is what you love to be - uniquely YOU. This is applied spirituality in action.

When you feel this "Zone", you feel your self esteem, self worth, self value, and self love and self-appreciation. When you know Who You Really Are, there is only Self Esteem. For how could it be otherwise?

The hallmark of a spiritual journey is fraught with irony and paradox because it is mirroring the 180 polarity of human mind and Godmind. So, being selfish (finding your True Self) is the path to Self Esteem - your Godchip, usually in juxtaposition to the conditioned human mind. Who would have thought?

Thus the path to Self development is following your heart, following the daily moment to moment decisions that feel good to You, being with the folks that feel right to you, participating in the activities that feel enlivening to You, is the way you find and connect, then blend with your True Self and let It rip! When you let IT rip, you feel You flooding through you, creating your dreams, words, creations. When you're feeling You flowing through you, there is only Self Love.

Thanks for Reading!

Kath